It is a bleak morning. I am huddled over the porcelain bowl in my bathroom awaiting the evacuation of my stomach. I feel wretched. I am thinking about all of the things I should be doing and my complete inability to move even an inch at this particular moment is foreshadowing my failure. It is not a good feeling to have. Somehow I feel completely empty and yet I am still getting sick. Clearly, there is more in me than I thought. And yes, this may be an odd place to have awakenings... but then it hits me...
Sometimes giving from an empty cup is necessary to fill it up!
And no, I don't mean that puking out your entire stomach contents is going to somehow make you feel satiated. But in a grander sense... when it comes to life at large... this is a realization that I needed to have and somehow my stomach's non-empty emptiness communicated it. Sometimes giving from the cup we perceive to be empty, is the only way to recognize how full it really is.
I don't know about you, but I often feel stretched too thin. I think it kind of goes hand-in-hand with just being a human... throw in other things like employee, parent, sibling, spouse, volunteer, teacher, student, any kind of goal setter, entrepreneur... we all have multiple roles to fulfill. It doesn't matter how many or what they are, we all face moments where we doubt we have enough to fulfill them. It's normal and it is okay. However, what I continue to learn in life is that my expectation of running out seldom comes to fruition. Sure, there may be times when I don't quite get it all done, but the world keeps spinning and I keep living. I assure you, it does, and you will, too.
Every time I think my cup is empty... every time I think I have given all I have to give... I somehow find a little more. And yes, I have seen all the pictographed quotes establishing that one cannot give from an empty vessel... And yes, I do recognize the importance of self-care and making sure our own needs are met in order to give more effectively. I am not arguing any of that; let's not confuse the two. Yes, take care of yourself! And yes, there are moments where we need to step back and allow ourselves the self-care right smack in the middle of it all in order to keep getting it done. I definitely needed to take care of me for awhile this morning before coming back to all of my roles. Trust me, they will wait for you. They always do.
What I am saying... is shatter that blasted cup! There is no empty or full, there only IS, constantly flowing, and there is always enough! Sometimes we need that feeling of empty, to shatter the perception of a limit or an end. Sometimes we need that feeling of empty to recognize how much MORE there IS... to recognize how much MORE WE ARE!
Perception is Everything. Cups have bottoms. There is a limit to their volume. My vessel is LIMITLESS.
Each time I give a little more than I thought I had to give, I expand my consciousness of how much more there is. The more I recognize that I am not as empty as I thought I was, the more I break through the limits of my own perception. So, yes, sit down when you need to. Recoup, regroup, re-energize... this is all part of the process. But come back to it! We can only run out when we believe there is a limit! Instead of worrying about how full the cup is, check out the vastness of the ocean and go for a swim.
Try this on for size... I think I'm going to have to get myself one: