What Are You Deciding?
Consciousness is an endless process of decision making. Even in the moments when we purposefully avoid the decision, we are deciding to do that. Even in those moments when we step back and make space and do our best to just go with the flow (without consciously directing it), a choice is being made. In every moment we are deciding how to connect to it... where to put our focus, what to perceive, how to show up. We don't always pay full attention to these choices, but on some level, we are always making them. There's no way around it. If life is choice, what choice are you making?
"WHOA WHOA WHOA! What is she talking about? Every moment is a decision? I hate decisions! She's totally freaking me out!" If this is your reaction, I understand where you're coming from. Decisions have never been my strong suit. On one hand, it's because there are a lot of things that I just don't care about in life (like what we eat for dinner tonight or what color the curtains are) and on the other hand, with decisions I do find important, there is always this looming fear of making the "wrong" choice. In fact, I've dealt with a lot of decision paralysis in my life. For many years I was so afraid of making a "wrong" choice that I chose to stay stagnating in a place of indecision. Even now that I have recognized these fears and worked through them, when you can see multiple possibilities and have no concept of how to compare them, the decision process can feel kind of futile. I've learned to learn from the experience, but at the same time, how am I supposed to know what to do if I can't guarantee any of them will bring the result I want? If this is a game of trial and error how does it even matter where I start? This line of questioning still plagues me from time to time. I tell myself that in the grand scheme it doesn't really matter where I start, but if I want to get anywhere I have to start somewhere. So I look at the experience I've gained, and I trust myself to simply start.
2017 for me was a year of stride-making. I did a lot of starting! I did things that were never really in my radar as a possibility of things to do. I've gotten some results that weren't really the results I was aiming for, but they have their benefits nonetheless. Are there things externally that could stand some improvement? You bet! Can I have an influence on those things moving forward? You bet! Here in my personal field, I am becoming more conscious of the intimate decisions I make in each moment, and how these decisions have the potential to ripple out and effect things in the world at large. As I strengthen my connection to these decisions right now, I strengthen my ability to have an influence moving forward.
Sometimes all this decision making is exhausting... Sometimes thinking about another decision is honestly the last thing in hell that we want to do. I get that. Remember, not deciding is still a choice. By turning away from our power to choose, we resign what we are creating. Are you allowing fears to intimidate your decision making? Are you ready to leave those fears behind in 2017? (If you need help with that, check out Establishing Inner Peace @ Artemis https://artemistheartofliving.com/classes-workshops/)
What do you want to create? Focus on that! Deprioritize some of the every day decisions that we often get exhausted by... like what to eat or what to wear for example. As long as no one is hungry and everyone is clothed -- You are doing great! (Seriously! I don't care if your kids are wearing mismatched pajamas at the store... or you for that matter) Prioritize what you are doing with the time you are given. How are you using this moment to grow yourself? To grow your connection? To build your happiness? Prioritize showing up authentically in this moment, and allow that growth to unfold!
I am choosing to focus my 2018 on growth. Growth is admittedly an ongoing theme for me, and maybe in some way that's a cop out... But honestly, I can't think of a better place to focus, any moment of any day in any year. The truth is, I don't know exactly what "growth" for me right now looks like, but I know I am ready for it. As I continue to make more and more conscious decisions about how to show up authentically in my day to day, I open to any way that growth may unfold! I plan to grow my service, my connection, my business, my relationships, I plan to grow all around! I will do this by paying more attention to those ultimately life-changing yet so easily overlooked decisions: Where is your focus? What do you perceive (and if that's not serving you, how can you shift it)? How are you showing up?
Let's face it, there is no destination point where we reach all that we are... As long as we exist, we are constantly growing. Right now, let's just all focus on stepping into the 2018 model - fully updated and open to accepting future updates. Happy New Year!