"I don't think you are supposed to think so much about it, Mom."
"Then, what am I supposed to do?" I ask my 10 year old son who is piping into our conversation from the back seat. I'm talking about the class I really want and feel moved to offer and how I'm thinking I'll do it and what would work best and where it would best fit.
"Just DO it!" he directs, and... I think I know where he got that from. "Isn't that what you always say?" he affirms.
And, yes, I've said it, and yes, he's right... on so many different levels. But, is it really what I've been doing lately? I mean I have in some areas, and in some others, not so much. And I don't think it's a method I've ever been disappointed by. Does it always go just how I hoped? No. Does it sometimes turn out beyond anything I could've possibly imagined - you bet! And every time, no matter the experience, it always teaches me something more about myself!
The first time I held a class, I was terrified I would screw something up, but I did it anyway. The first time I gave a speech, I felt incredibly unprepared. Guess what? I did it anyway! The first time I quoted a client for services, I half expected them to laugh in my face! I did it anyway! And all of these steps are crucial movements that have gotten me to where I am today... Allow the discomfort, embrace it even, and keep stepping anyway! I know this! So, why am I still pulling back?
What is holding me back in the areas that I don't jump in? The areas that I hesitate? Generally, it's some doubt. And where does that doubt come from? Some kind of perceived gap between where I am and where I need to be. Does this sound familiar? Can you identify with this? It's the "someday" mentality, the "maybe then", or "once I do this", or "when I'm...", or "I don't have the ..... to.... yet". It's the erroneous belief that there is something more we need to achieve or do or become before we can successfully step into that thing we want to create! Remember, everyone has to start somewhere. It's how we learn. It's how we grow.
The perceived gap is all in your imagination! Anything that stops you from stepping into your expression, is nothing more than a perception of lack. You can do whatever you want RIGHT NOW. And you can do it well, with all your heart. Am I guaranteeing it is going to make you a million dollars? NO. But it will bring you growth and it may bring you joy and it will bring you the experience that you are so afraid to lack! The only place it's ever going to take you is UP. Each and every experience becomes another "lesson" another "certificate" of sorts that keeps you climbing that staircase to the fullest expression of ALL that YOU ARE!
What about the things that do require degrees and certifications? Is there anything stopping you from going to get that thing right now? Not a damn thing. There is always a way. Don't have the money? Start fundraising. Don't have the time? Make some. There's nothing preventing you from moving toward it, focus on what small step you CAN take right here. And you can use the knowledge you have right now, without it. That degree is only necessary for a very specific vocation. If you have the knowledge, look at where and how you can implement it right now in your own life through your daily interactions! No matter what you may or may not decide to work toward, you are already good enough. You are already learned enough. And you are already grown enough to step into your magic. Right Now.
We live in a world of possibility! A world where my 10 year old kid is a bestselling Amazon collaborative author about to publish his first solo book! Was he sure he could? No. Did he do it anyway? You bet!
We also live in a world where I just watched a 14 year old kid (Dylan Roche) place first in the Philadelphia Comedy Academy Competition! And where child artists and musicians and professional Shopkins unpackers (hey we each have a light of our own) are blowing up YouTUBE every day! (seriously, just type it in child artist or musician LOL... Elizabeth Anisimow, Aelita Andre, Tsung Tsung, Alma Deutscher, the list goes on! )
I'm not sure why this new generation seems to be thinking differently. But I do know that it is time for us to catch up!
Some of us may not have grown up in the most supportive environments, and perhaps this has shadowed our glow. Personally I grew up surrounded by love and support. And somehow, I've still constructed shadows of my own sort. I can remember being in elementary school and having my teacher say that she knew beyond a doubt I would be a bestselling author "some day" and that she would be calling for her signed copies in the mail! It lit my heart up, but it also felt far away. Many adults gave me equally supportive words of encouragement, all with equally good intentions... but somehow they all seemed future based and being the sensitive kid with a good deal of language awareness due to my constant internal verbiage and love of the written word, I seemed to internalize that "someday". I took it quite literally.
"Someday"... it's a tricky word. It sounds like it's all full of possibilities (that's a good thing, right?) and yet, it never gets here!
So, at the age of say 9 or 10 I was already embracing the "some day" of it. Writing a book, having an art show, making a difference, sharing my message, being successful at well, anything, seemed like something I was always waiting for... getting ready for... working toward. "Once I get through high school, I'll...." "Once I get through college, I'll..." "Once I'm an adult, I'll...." "Once I finish this class... or degree... or certification... or have this following... or that office..." which always rolls into another... and another... and another... and when is it ever ENOUGH?
You are ENOUGH Right Now... Right Here... in this moment! Never wait to shine your shine... You are the only one who gets to determine how bright you are going to sparkle! Why should that ever be something to wait for?
When I was young and spent every free moment locked up in my bedroom listening to the Cranberries and writing furiously, I don't remember anyone ever saying to me, "Hey, you do that pretty well! Why don't you do something with it RIGHT NOW!" It's time for some RIGHT NOW, people! Whatever it is that you've been "someday"ing, it's time to turn over those excuses.
Maybe you're right, maybe you don't know all there is to know. It's okay, you will learn through the process. Maybe you don't have enough time, money, whatever you think you need; it's okay, more will come. Maybe things aren't all perfect right now and maybe you don't feel like you've finished the lesson.... It's okay! You've come this far! Keep on stepping and you will keep progressing! Growth is a process!
"Someday" is always out there.... off in the distance... over the next hurdle or the next leap or the next bound. It's never going to be "someday". You know what time it is? Always and eternally? Right Now. NOW is the only moment that you EVER get to BE in!
Take the honest and unshaded wisdom of my 10 year old author son-- Just DO It. Jump on in! You've got nowhere to go but UP!